I want Jemma Simmons to be angry in Season 2
I want her to be angry at Ward. I want her to freeze whenever someone mentions him, and cling desperately to whatever she’s holding until her knuckles turn white. I want her to visit him in prison and look at him with steely eyes and promise him she’ll never forgive him for what he’s done* I want her to remain cold, her voice only shaking a little, until he tries to interrupt her and then she shrieks and lunges at him over the table until one of the team comes and restrains her and takes her away. She screams curses as she is dragged out.
I want her to be irritable with the rest of the team, from lack of sleep and worry over Fitz. She snaps at Skye and Trip when they try to persuade her to leave the lab and at Coulson when he comes to visit Fitz with her. I want May to come and give her the same hate-fu talk she gave to Skye because Jemma needs it as much as her. She argues with May over it because what the hell can she channel it into? She’s not a field agent, she’s a biochemist. If she could channel it into something, could defend herself, maybe Fitz wouldn’t be in a coma. May offers to train her and so she joins her and Skye for early morning tai-chi. It helps, but the anger doesn’t go away.
I want her to be angry at herself - because she couldn’t defend herself, because she didn’t argue with Fitz to come up with a better plan where they both live, because she didn’t save him properly. Jemma Simmons is used to sacrificing herself for others, not others (her best friend in the whole world) sacrificing themselves for her. She tries to explain to Skye, who assures her it’s not her fault, She doesn’t quite believe it.
And then there’s the matter of her feelings for Fitz - she’s angry she didn’t notice the signs, angry that she doesn’t know how she feels, angry because he thinks she’s more than that. Angry at him. They’re past the point of ordinary best friends, they are more than that - does he (did he) not realise that? She’s angry at him for that, which of course leads to more guilt because he’s in a coma because of it.
I want her to be sitting by his bedside one day, and there’s something about the monotony of the monitors beeping, him breathing in and out with the help of a machine and the silence in between these things that makes her break. She yells at him to wake up, screams at him, because for fuck’s sake, of course he’s more than that and she can’t live without him either. She shrieks and yells and stomps and cries but he still doesn’t wake up. The team rush in and calm her down, and she’s better after the outburst, but she still cries herself to sleep most nights.
I don’t want her to be weepy all the time and not leave Fitz’s hospital room ever because that’s just not accurate to her character. She’d be looking into the GH-325 to see if it could help him. And I don’t want her to just forgive Fitz and say she loves him too straight away when he wakes up, because that’s not what the Jemma Simmons we’ve grown to love over the past season would do. She’d be relieved he’s okay, of course, but Jemma Simmons would be angry.
*I’m on team Ward-will-get-a-redemption-arc, so I do think Simmons will forgive him eventually, but she’ll be one of the last ones to do it. In general, I think she’s a pretty forgiving person (see how she reacted to Skye’s betrayal in episode 5) unless that person has hurt someone she loves.